#mentally ill about the machine

[topnotchquark]

#i still have to write about what I was thinking of regarding their styles of showing love but I have been wanting to collect more evidence#hmm maybe I should just write it <- scholarship? scholarship for the starving masses? 🥺

Okay let's get to this. I'll do a more coherent post when I have more evidence, but some fractured thoughts for now.

The way Pecco expresses affection to his bike: That two fingered kiss pressed onto the frame of the Ducati. The exaggerated quick massaging motion. It's almost as if the bike is human to Pecco. There is love but also a respectful distance, a recognition of personhood. The bike is something you work to build a relationship with, just like anyone you love in this life. The bike is something that brings you success and glory, so you thank it, you prove yourself worthy of riding it, you give it a kiss, you understand that the bike has its quirks and you love it for, and despite those quirks. Which (to me, okay) seems like Pecco's relationship with his loved ones in general (I'll elaborate that later, it's a jumble of thoughts). Also this year Pecco has been doing his fair share of goon riding for show. Imo the only purpose is to draw attention to yourself and your championship winning machine. Here, it's me and my baby, we're a winning team, here, we have fun. Because love is also a little bit about showing off, tastefully, of course.

The way Bezz expresses love to his bike: Gentle slow circles rubbed on the frame, bringing his entire body as close to the bike as possible, smallest pats on the side, as if placing his hand on the chest of a loved one, momentarily resting his helmet covered head on the frame of the bike. Characteristic lack of distance, motions so small and controlled that they could only be communicated between two beings that are so in tune that every other sensation is simply noise. To Bezz, the love for his bike is like an ancient animal understanding that exists between two bodies. There is no explanation for it, no justification, the connection is there and the thread that ties the two beings together thrums with a life of its own. Nobody has to prove to be worthy of the other one, the bond is there, and it's a positively reinforced feedback loop. The more your honor the inherent connection between two bodies the stronger it grows, under duress or during good times. Which is just Bezz is general isn't he, everyone likes him, there is no effort required to be loved, to be adored. His team, his mechanics, Vale, academy folks, everyone on MotoGPblr, almost everyone watching MotoGP, everyone likes Bezz.

Pecco wants to be worthy of his bike. He works to earn that love. Bikefucking as a desire tied to aspiration.

Bezz is connected to his bike like two beings that just know they have a need to belong together. Bikefucking as something your mind and body just does.

[gatekeeper-of-witchcraft]

correct me if I’m out of line bc I’m not a detransitioner, but I hate hate hate how common arguments against transition/“in defense of” detransitioners is “they can’t have kids!” or “they can’t breastfeed!”

why should mitigating harm always come down to what a woman can do for a potential child (or a man’s ability to father children)? why isn’t it enough to keep HER from harm? it’s just prioritizing women as broodmares all over again. why isn’t it enough to keep HER from chronic pain, heart and blood pressure issues, incontinence, necrosis, limited mobility and death?

[starry-bi-sky]

*stares at disciple SQQ falling into the abyss au*

oh you are so "SY-is-SJ" coded. You are so "fell into the abyss and suddenly remembered that oh i've been Shen Jiu this whole time, not just Shen Yuan. we are one and the same". you are so 'crumbling under the weight of the system and being in the abyss and the despair of never really being free and having suffered in both lives' built. you are so 'scrambling to come to terms with your existence and battling with which life is really yours, only to realize that they both are'. You are primed for going off the rails.

I'm so normal about this guys. i promise.

[flufflecat]

do most people know that mcgucket was using the memory gun on random workers and on ford repeatedly during the late stages of the portal construction?

[xxplastic-cubexx]

you say they can’t put telepaths in marvel rivals, yet we have some very credible leaks that jean grey and emma frost are gonna be in the game soon.

that being said, jean has telekinesis (and the phoenix force) and emma has her diamond form. telepathy is all charles has, lmfao. odds are pretty low for him, but maybe not zero if they give him telekinesis!

if yall have me say he got psionic blasts one more time i am going to scream HE HAS MORE THAN TELEPATHY . LIMITED BUT HE HAS IT <- he has gone against sentinels and disabled armies with it before HE CAN FIGHT I PROMISEEE

and technically they did give him telekinesis in krakoa (and very weak telekinesis sometimes before krakoa) so .... not my fave move but he does have that ...... and ig they give him a gun sometimes ........ last resort type shit but he has options ..

[r0zzk1ll]

"this man, is weird.. CRAZY weird.." "he was always very bright.."

[onceinawhilemoon]

sure, sherry. your brother would just let M walk free after he literally checked every single box under Ways to Antagonize Mycroft Holmes by: killing his agents, actively fucking with intelligence and national security operations, being a literal threat to the nation, and committing the cardinal sin of stalking and threatening to hurt an overprotective mama bear’s cub (aka YOU), a crime easily punished by imprisonment, death, or worse (see: otto richter). but sure… 

[some-pers0n]

Every once in a while I think about the ship I've been obsessed over for close to two years now and feel like I'm ascending to another plane of reality. Like sometimes you just encounter a ship that hits every single mark and is perfect in every regard and you're left stunned how something like that can even exist

[littjara-mirrorlake]

Headcanon which has no grounding in canon, I'm just extremely invested in it:

New Phyrexia is illuminated by the hazy memory of sun from Zhalfir during the day, but at night, the many planes of the now-distant Multiverse cover the dark sky like stars. Adventurous Phyrexians can stargaze by climbing the inscrutable monuments of the Glorious Facade, and constellations are being traced and named.

[lupins-hehim-pussy]

Just speed consumed all of addison lee very much enjoyed I am waiting with my popcorn for next chapter! I did have a wonder while reading, what is Wriothesley's scope of vision? Is it like this needs to be 3 inches in front of his face? Can he see faces clearly if he's close enough? Loving the fic, keep writing!

The short answer is:

No matter how close he gets, it's still gonna be unclear. It's not quite like myopia/short-sightedness where the blurriness can change with glasses/distance. His vision is more like looking through foggy glass. If something is pressed right up to the glass, you can see it more clearly, but it will still be foggy. Additionally, the guy has always been red/green colour-blind, so that doesn't change even after his war injuries, but because his vision is worse in general, he can barely tell colours apart lol. Unless it's bright blue.

LONG ANSWER UNDER THE CUT.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA HEHEHHHEHEHHE WHUAGHAHA sorry. I like to infodump about my fics.

Not kidding when say this: I have a document that have notes on every single year in the 10 years between the Celestia war and current INGITAL events.

Unfortunately this was all planned before Sigewinne release, so I didn't have her canon birthday (AND I DON'T CARE ABOUT CANON ANY MORE I'm burying my head in the sand.) but it accounts for every year that Sigewinne grew up and some other random lore bits. "What does this have to do with my question?" you ask. Well, I have the 10-years progression notes specifically to keep their life events in order and Wriothesley's and Neuvillette's healing progress consistent KJNDSKJNSANSKJHASDJNJSNDKJNASJNDSAJNKSAKJ.

SO. Detailed answer is this:

At this point in INGITAL, if you stand 1-2 meters away from him and wave, he's gonna notice if he's looking at you, paying attention, and you're both indoors, or he's wearing sunnies. He's not gonna be able to recognise anything, though, he can just tell something is moving. He can sort of read regular text on a computer screen at about 2-3 inches (on a good day) using his better eye (left, so he always sorta lean that way when he's trying to look at something), but it's a struggle and he'd rather not do it. His right is worse.

There's also his field of vision. So like, his peripherals are pretty much gone, and he has some dark patches/blind spots. He's also light-sensitive, so everything's kinda painfully bright sometimes, but his vision is also bad in the dark, so he needs a happy medium, but that can shift from day to day.

Very rough idea of what Neuvillette might look like to him on a sunny day. Veeery rough idea. I'm not blind I just researched a lot.

And then, regardless of what he can actually physically see, if his eyes hurt or feel too sensitive to keep open, it's all moot anyway. And once again, usually that depends on the day.

When Sigewinne was born, he had functionally decent vision in one eye (had a corneal transplant on his right). Legally can't get his driving licence, but y'know, he still felt confident enough to drive (Neuvillette did not let him, though.) The transplanted eye deteriorates over Sigewinne's first few months, and so did his better eye. He got another surgery for his left eye (the better one) when Sigewinne was about one, and that lasted for a bit, but by the time she's two, he's pretty much considered legally blind. By the time she's four, he does most things on his own and his other issues are managed as well, which is why they decided to have a second kid, and they had Carole when Sigewinne was 5. But Neuvillette struggled a bit with that second pregnancy. I mean, his first wasn't exactly rose and rainbows, but he his mental health nose-dived with the second one for a while. It's because he's been so focused on keeping it together while Wriothesley recovers that he hasn't fully dealt with his own trauma until his second pregnancy. Because yeah, thinking your husband died while you're carrying your first baby was traumatic. They've both got PTSD. By the time Sedene comes about though, they're all good. Sedene's pregnancy was a breeze, there was just Covid lockdowns HAHAHAHA. And then, if I go through with another pregnancy at the end of INGITAL, well... That's for me to know and for you to ponder.

[By the way, Clorinde mentioned going over to their house for Wrio's birthday 8 years ago in Chapter 9, which is when Sigewinne was 3 and he was 28. His previous birthday (his 27th) was a disaster. Had a big fight with his husband. So that's another morsel of lore from the 10-years-of-plot document.]

There's a scene planned somewhere in all this, where Neuvillette shows him some of their photos on one of the days when his vision is better. Photos of eeeeveryone their kids and their friends and all. He printed them out and edited them to raise the contrast so Wriothesley can see it more easily. Wriothesley voice: Ajax is fucking ginger? [This is lore relevant. No spoilers though.]

[eagle-head-charge]

Morning, Soldier! Hope you feel... okay?

I feel sleepy

You dont have to check im on me so often, son. My prkblems arent your responsibility. I’ll be oksy!!!!!!!!!! Its just. a lot to desl with sometimes

[exx-bee]

I have been Too Excited to keep this secret and am now going 2 share a wip that im super proud of and have been working on ;-D

doodles under tha read more :-3

[malevolentheadtrips]

I have romanticized my own loneliness to the point that human connection no longer appeals to me.

[lunathewafflelord]

Currently writing a post regarding the double standards when it comes to disability representation in the media and how it's strange that people are usually okay with physical disability (blindness, deafness, wheelchair users, missing limbs, etc) representation but get really critical of intellectual disabilities (mostly autism in this case)

Are there any topics that people would like to see discussed in this post, like personal experiences regarding this subject? Feel free to send an ask or a message!

[vobomon]

Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs is reaching its 10th anniversary so I figure the game desperately needs some quality memes,,, 

[camgirlkaminari]

hey my friends and i are watching the bnha musical where kurogiri is basically shiggy's vape pen but with glowing eyes (in real he's a smoke machine we think) and we were wondering what flavour vape he is? i thought you would know the answer to this.

ok so first of all, SO glad you came to me with this. this is so important. initially, my first impulse was to say OBVIOUSLY since he is purble, he must taste like grape. but then i was like no that's too obvious. too simple. perhaps he is blackberry. or funnier, watermelon breeze. or whatever. but I can't choose there's so many hilarious flavors he could be. my man is the reanimated corpse of a seventeen year old who is in charge of a bunch of unhinged 20 somethings, perhaps he is whatever Slapple Menthol™ must be. or, considering this is shiggy smoking this man, perhaps he is a clove situation: no tobacco, all spice (all the sigma males smoke clove.) eventually, defeated, i had to consult my crack team of scientists (goof chat) on this matter and it was very much a consensus:

he purble. so he taste like